My friends and I were really obsessed with the Lord of the Rings movies in high school. If you’re honest with yourself, I’d venture to say you were probably a little bit obsessed, too. So when I heard that Sean Astin was going to be appearing at Story, I was pretty stoked. Some know him best as Rudy or as Mikey from The Goonies, but he’ll always be Sam to me…
Reading through my notes now, about a week after the event, I’m remembering that he spoke to something that’s been in my heart of hearts, and one of the recurring themes of this blog. He told us that when he got the phone call telling him he had landed the role of Sam in the Lord of the Rings trilogy, he fell to his knees and cried. Why?
“I knew I was going to get to do something that really mattered,” he said.
And that’s something that I’ve been searching for for quite a while now. There’s a tension between needing a job and needing a purpose. Something about sitting in a cubicle or pulling shots just doesn’t do it for me–it’s a way to earn a living, but not a way I want to spend a life. I want to use my skills, but more than that, I want to use them in a way that really matters.
Sean said, “Artists thrive when they feel like they can make a difference.”
Absolutely. I get that. And I’m dying to make a difference somewhere. It’s this deep down desire, an ache that I’m called to do so much more. Someone once pointed out to me that a job is ultimately exchanging hours of your life for pay. I don’t want to get to the end of my life and realize I made a poor exchange. The challenge is just knowing what that looks like practically.
I want that moment when I’m crippled to my knees with the realization that I’m going to get to do something that really matters. I think it’s a universal ache. Our souls crying for something more. I want to make a difference. I want to thrive.
Have you had a moment like this? What did it look like? How did you answer it?